[She sees the tensing of his shoulders, the schooling of his expression, and her smile gets less bright, uncertain. Maybe she shouldn't have turned over. Maybe this is only making it harder for Kaz.
She has a feeling the thing with touch has to do with Jordie's fate. She doesn't get it, doesn't see how it connects, but she thinks it does. Every day, she wishes she could erase his pains. She wonders if he wishes the same thing for her, thinking about how her past hurts her every day. She wishes he could.
But now she's just wondering if she could get away with kissing him without falling apart in his arms, without him shivering away from her. It's tempting, with him looking down out her, unsure but wanting. She can still see the want in his face, though it's hidden well. Hidden from her.]
You always could, Kaz, [she murmurs, hand falling to his clothed arm. Will they always be like this? Their quick progress suggests that they could work past their touching problems, but something deep inside of her wants and is desperate about it.]
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She has a feeling the thing with touch has to do with Jordie's fate. She doesn't get it, doesn't see how it connects, but she thinks it does. Every day, she wishes she could erase his pains. She wonders if he wishes the same thing for her, thinking about how her past hurts her every day. She wishes he could.
But now she's just wondering if she could get away with kissing him without falling apart in his arms, without him shivering away from her. It's tempting, with him looking down out her, unsure but wanting. She can still see the want in his face, though it's hidden well. Hidden from her.]
You always could, Kaz, [she murmurs, hand falling to his clothed arm. Will they always be like this? Their quick progress suggests that they could work past their touching problems, but something deep inside of her wants and is desperate about it.]
Is this okay? Just for a little while?